Tis another hard day. It’s only 8:45 am and I am ready for the day to
be over. The only problem with that is that tomorrow will be another
day. Damn it. On the other hand, tomorrow is therapy. We did not plan
that very well. The past 4 times we went to therapy, after we got
out, I didn’t feel like doing anything or talking to anyone. I felt
heavy and numb all over. And this week, we scheduled our session just
before dance class. What were we thinking? Oh well. It’s been raining
all day. There was thunder and lightning this morning. There were
flood watches in our area all morning. Now my house is all damn. My
clothes are damp. My chair is damp. I guess that sort of suits my
mood right now. On top of it, I am waiting to hear news about a
friend. I worry. I’m sorry I am not there. I should be. I love you.
Anyway. More to come some other time.

Well, this week is going to be busy. This is the las week for
rehearsal for our play. We have rehearsal on Mon, Tues, Wed, and
Friday. On Thursday, we are going down to Kelly O’Niels in costume
and promoting the play. Then the big day is on Saturday. Plus, on
Wed, there is dancing just after Holly and I go to therapy. And On
Thursday I have yet another 2 hour long meeting with work to work on
this big project we are doing. Wow. Action Packed. It will be fun. It
will keep my mind off other things. At least for half of the day.
Then once the play is over, I will have more time to get back to the
gym more often. I must work on my figure you know.

Well, we finally got down to the court house to file our paperwork
only to be led on a goose chase trying to find all the correct
paperwork. I think we got everything we need. Now we must re-fill out
forms and change a few things here and there and go back to the
courthouse to file things. They sure don’t make this process easy.
Anyway. I appreciate all the comments and support. I guess this
answers the question of if any of my family reads my blog. I will try
to update more often on here. Holly and I are continuing our therapy
sessions. Somehow, I didn’t realize how hard this therapy was going
to be. But I am going day to day here while still retaining the big
picture as not to get distracted, make quick decisions or react in
inappropriate ways. Overall, I think things are smoothing out and
becoming more clear and easier to handle and deal with.

The search is on. I am looking for a new apt and a car of my own. I
don’t know if or when exactly I will be moving again. The lease on
this apt runs out in January. So who knows.

On another note, I am going to start right now to save up money for a
brand new car in 2008. What would make me decide that? Take a look:

Oh yeah.

Well, the papers are all filled out. We are going to see about
signing them and filing them this week. *sigh* I hate this. I don’
look forward to 2007.

Well, I guess the cat is sort of out of the bag by now. Besides, I
have talked to most who read this blog about it. Holly and I are
filing for legal separation. In a way I am hopeful though. This will
give us a change to step back from everything and figure out who we
are and what we want. We will be able to focus more on things that
are important and deal with them with a clearer mind. But anyway,
there you have it. We are separating.