I spent the morning with Gavin, Holly and Mary as they had their 3rd book signing at Borders in Honolulu. It was nice. I took Gavin to the Yum Yum Tree for lunch. Just afterwards, I drove Holly to work. Driving home I thought about what is up with me. And of course I came to no conclusion. So I drove to the Super Cuts in the Temple Valley Shopping Center and got me a hair cut. Took about 45 minutes believe it or not. I got home just in time to take a quick shower, take some pictures of my new haircut and get ready for work. I didn’t have time to download the pictures to put on my blog, but chances are that Holly will read this, see the pictures on the camera and possibly put them on her blog. Otherwise, you will just have to wait until I put them up on mine. Later.

I feel a little sad today. I’m not quite sure why. I feel a little detached from myself. The day has been ok so I don’t know why I would feel like this. Holly and Mary had their first book signing today at Borders. Then we went home and Gavin slept until about 3:45pm while I lay on the couch and watched an episode of Carnivale. Mary sat with me for a bit and we split a beer. The she went up to her room to rest. Holly took a short rest when we got home and then came down to join me shortly before Mary went up. Then Holly made dinner. Then we all ate dinner. After dinner, I hopped in the kitchen to wash dishes and clean up the kitchen. After dishes were done and the kitchen was clean I went up to change for work. At this point Gavin woke up. I guess Holly and her mom decided to go out somewhere because Holly dressed Gavin. That is about the time I left for work. Now, here I am typing this and feeling sad. I don’t even know if sad is the word. No, it’s not. What is the word? Blah? Not myself? Down? Unusual? Not exactly sure what it is, but it is not normal for me. Not a feeling I’m used to.

What a crazy week this has been. Sort of a self discovery week sort of thing. It has been wierd. Funny how you can always learn new things about yourself you never thought you could learn. Holly has been stressed. This is her last week of this summer class in which she was to prepare a 30 min presentation and a 15 page paper for a teacher that sucks ( i think I played it down a little with the work “suck”). On another note, I took sort of a dive over the weekend and did some heavy personal venting to my co-worker/friend, otherwise known as “Leggy Redhead”. It felt really good. On one hand it was really strange teller her all these different things about me, but on the other hand I think we could end up being good friends. Open mic night was great again. I met Dave. We got together before this previous Open mic night to practice some stuff together and then played some stuff together at open mic night and for having only practiced that once (and some not at all), it sounded really good. Next week I think we are going to try an acoustic version of “Enter Sandman”. And since VJ’s is BYOB, we are going to bring some B. Last time I brought Holly some Kahlua drinks (referred to in Holly’s blog) since I knew her class was going to be stressful. She appreciated them very much. Holly and her mom have thier first book signing this weekend. Should be cool. Holly has the weekend off from class and work with 4th of July being on Monday. So that is cool. We can spend some time together. I so look forward to that. I am going to reformat my web page. It has bothered me for a while that it was formatted to fit only 1024×768 screens and not 800×600 screens. I think I might stick with the same style, but format it differently. I don’t know. I have a lot to update. “Do you ever feel like you are not who you think you are?”

Another decent day in the land of Hawaii. My morning was invigorating. What did I eat for breakfast? Cake. Chocolate cake. Oh so nutritious. I then spent the afternoon working for karatedepot. Sometime around 2:45 or so, I was ditched and left alone where I could bask in the comforts of being alone. Now I’m at work. I might be able to get out of here by midnight. Maybe. Depends on inventory. I bought my airline tickets for NY in October. I will only be spending a week there. Too short. Holly has not had any other attacks that I know of. She has been avoiding driving. We have been driving her to class and here and there. That will cut down on some of the anxiety. I’m tired. I want to go to bed now. It’s only 10:00. If I don’t finish this blog, I will never get done. Good night. Holly, I hope your evening was wonderful. See you soon.